So it's been a while since I've written in my journal. Basically my most current issue as a student graphic designer is the fact that I get all As on my projects. It doesn't seem much like an issue, but it becomes an issue when I enter every competition on the face of the earth for graphic design, and I don't win ANYTHING. EVER. I'm a competitive person, and I always try my hardest. So when I get As on my projects I feel like the work should get far in competitions. I'm not trying to be arrogant at all or anything. I just am confused. I'll be a senior next year and I guess I've been feeling a little insecure about getting a job. I find myself second guessing myself all the time and thinking that maybe my work isn't good enough and I should pursue something else. Questions like, "Will I ever be able to intern or get a job with MY portfolio?" I mean sure I'm getting good grades, but I guess I just feel like people outside of my class don't like any of it. So I'm just kinda confused. *sigh* I just try to keep hoping that maybe someone out there will like my work enough to give me a try. I guess for me everything just hits me harder when I don't feel like I'm doing good in art, because art is the only thing I'm good at.
That Jimmy Eat World song keeps playing in my head...
I hope it's true.